It's just... Ok, I don't know how to describe what it is like not being fine with yourself. It actually means that anything you do can change nothing. It's you that has a problem, and the problem is you. Not where you are or what you're doing; not even who you are with. All that seems to mean something to you, but you can't realize what it's all about. At least, time shows you how to deal with it and with all the world around you at the same time, but you can't escape that moment when everything comes to you again, and shows you how wrong you were, thinking that someday it would just go away if you ignore it. I know I have to do something, I can't sit here dreaming about a miracle. I must... Well the thing is, I can't figure out how to make things right, everything I do seems to be useless. I can't change anything. I have to change something. That's how my life works right now; constantly changing my mind, about what or whether to change a